Was the Two Week Wait always this long? Phew! I don’t remember it being this long. I will know by next Friday whether this cycle worked or not, because my cycles are accurate almost to the minute. Ne-e-e-e-xt Friday! It feels like a lifetime away.
BTW, previously mentioned Fertile Friend is not pregnant. Whatever. I, being of the infertile persuasion, would be a lot more cautious about telling anyone if I thought I might be pregnant. But that’s just me. Oversensitive. Overcautious. But don’t worry, ’cause I’m over it. Moving on…
On the upside, people in the blogosphere are falling pregnant left, right, and centre. Twins popping out of all the crevices now. Someone also seeing my BFG has also just given birth to a baby girl after IUI (not sure how many, two or three). For these people I am bursting out of my skin with joy and elation. No, really. I am. I am always happy when fellow-IF’s finally make it across the chasm. I will state, however, that hearing about so many in such a short space of time does take it’s toll. I go from really overjoyed, tearful, elated to – quite happy to – um, that’s nice to – okay that’s about as many pregnant people as I can handle for one week thanks!
Seriously, though, it is wonderful and very encouraging. (I mean it!)
I am going to Cape Town in just over a week, to watch the Hoff and my dad do the Argus Cycle Race. It is the biggest timed cycle race in the world, and a first for my dad. I am very proud of him, as it’s 100 or so km’s of mountainous Cape terrain, and I know he’s been training his butt off. Literally. Anyone who has ever done a cycle race will know exactly what I mean.
Anyway, the bonus is that I get to spend time with all my family who live down there. (Mom, Dad, Brother & Wife, Sister & Husband & Niece, Other Brother.)
However: This does pose a small problem or two..
If this cycle fails, I can do another in March, but I am going to be in Cape Town for, like, a whole week. From CD 6 to CD 13. Hmmmm. I do know a doc down there who could do the scans etc. so that problem can be fixed.
The other problem is that I will most likely be on injectables which may turn me into… mwahahhahahaaaaaa…. Eeeeevil…. Yikes! I turn evil just thinking about it! It also happens to be the baby shower of my SIL, who I love very much and really want to be there for. This is the one baby shower that I have not broken into a cold sweat over, as it is my baby brother (23) and his gorgeous, lovely, dutch wife. I am worried about how I will be on the injectables though. I may morph into a green slimey foaming at the mouth monster from the dark side, at the mere mention of a baby. Or a shower. Not a pleasant mental image, I know.
Soooooo… I was thinking of taking a breather in March to avoid this whole dilemma, but then it’s another whole month of NOTHING. Not sure I can deal with that either.
What to do.. What to do..
Then there’s the financial side of things. Doing an IUI with injectables in March will be more expensive than the cycles we’ve just done with Clomid. We racked up the debt a little over Christmas, and felt all footloose and fancy free about money while it was the holidays. Two slow business months and two IUI’s into the New Year, and we are a bit poorer than expected. What I’m saying is that we could probably use a break, but I am not hellishly keen on it. I could subscribe to Richard Branson’s mantra: “Screw it. Let’s Do It!” and worry about the money thing afterwards. I have spent 5 years procrastinating and it got me nowhere. I am not happy about wasting any more time than is absolutely necessary. There is the whole endometriosis thing as well. It could be lurking around my insides waiting to pounce! If I leave things for too long, it will mean lapscope 3 for sure. (No Snoopy dancing going on here.)
I think we should just go ahead and do it. At best, I’ll be preggers by April, at worst, I’ll be prepping for the big daddy of IF treatment.
As for the family, hopefully they’ll read my link to Tertia’s “How to be Good Friends with an Infertile”, and embrace the slimey-green-frothy version of me. It will be for a good cause.