Feeling a bit better today. I took a tranky last night, so that may have helped. I got a lot of concerned comments (greatly appreciated). Just so you know, I have not given up on hope. I had blocked it out for a long long time, and letting it back in made this BFN really tough.
I also believe that Infertiles are some of the most resilient people out there. Today I am back. Battlescarred, bruised and quite honestly a little dazed, but ready to take up arms and fight again.
I have decided to do one more AI. I need to travel for In Vitro, which will only be in March, so I figured why not give IUI another bash. Hell, what’s the worst that can happen? I have a backup tranky in case the next IUI doesn’t work. My bank balance will look a slightly darker shade of red, as we in South Africa are not covered by our Medical Schemes for Fertility treatment of any kind. (It’s falls under cosmetic – can you actually grasp that!?)
Anyway, moving right along. Today is a better day. It has to be. And I can smell it in the air again.. can you? It’s the sweet scent of Possibility!