Sorry about that last post – I wanted to see what that was all about and had to post it in order to gain access. It looks quite good actually, it is a course about having more energy and getting what you want out of life, your job etc.
I am back to not sleeping – I think the work side of things is playing on my mind. I lay in bed last night until 2:30 going over the work for this week. Eventually I listened to some wacko CD which is supposed to lull you to sleep, but they have this crazy bell which “DINGS” every 5 seconds. So even if it was working, the bell wakes you up. I ended up listening to a meditation CD called Body Brilliance and that seemed to do the trick.
I still stand by what I said in my previous post about control. But in life, everything is easier said than done, so I regard myself as a work in progress.
I am going through a forum-stalker phase, where I spend most waking moments on the net waiting for someone to post something new. I am travelling other people’s IF journeys as I am unable to travel my own right now. I get a lot of comfort from hearing about their daily injections, scans, follie updates etc. I know, I am a sad example of a human being. You know what they say – whatever gets you through the day.
As unstable as I am sounding at the moment I am actually okay. (Besides not sleeping and obsessing about work) I am very excited to tell you that I have an appointment to see the Hypnotherapist on Wednesday and I can’t wait to hear what she has to say. I will keep you posted. Apparently it’s not that scary hypno that takes over your mind and makes you cluck like a chicken – you are very lucid and aware the whole time, it’s a sort of deep meditation from what I can gather. The other kind is against my religion, so we’ll be doing none of that!
Other than that, I’ve got a nasty cold. Please post something *someone* so that I can go and stalk you. Thanks. ‘Preciate it.
